._mizchyiel_.

Her Name is WILDA

2010-11-16T00:32:00.000-08:00

“parating na si auntie dadang nyo, magpakabait kayo…”

In the back of my mind, Who’s she? Why does she seem so important? And then she came, walk straight in front of us and hugged everyone in the crowd. Saying “hello”, “how are u”, “I missed u”, “how’s life?”… She looks sophisticated. In her eyes I saw excitement. And then she walk towards me and said “Kamusta ka na nene? Ang laki mo na.” As I look at her eyes, I drew a fake smile to that stranger. And before I knew it, she left.
It happens every other year, for how many years, this stranger always came and makes things worthwhile. Same scenario happens every time she’ll be here… I’ll see the same face, hear the same words, and draw the same smile. But when I drew the same fake smile, this stranger smiled at me. A smile I never thought she’ll give me. That perfect smile without hesitation and pretention. Her face defines honesty. Her hair sways softly with the wind. I never saw someone who can move freely as she does. Her simple gaze bring smile to anyone’s face. Her aura tells everyone that “life is short, make it worthwhile.” And she left again.

After another year, they said she’s coming. I felt something different. Why am I excited to see her? And she walks in. I saw the same face, heard the same voice…hugged her differently and smile without a doubt. What’s going on? This stranger seem to be someone I want to know. Year after year, same scenario happens. And this scenario draw me closer to this stranger. Things happened fast. I don't seem to remember when is the first time i called her auntie. But this stranger took my heart...it's as if i am never restless when she's there.

...she's Wilda.

._life_.

2009-12-01T01:38:00.000-08:00

Maybe God wants us to meet few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes, another one opens, but oftentimes we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one that has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is someone you can sit with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

"Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you in return" just wait for it to grow in their heart. If it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone... but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Don't go for the looks, for they can deceive. Don't go for the wealth; even that fades away. find the one who makes your heart smile. Dream what you want to dream. Go wherever you want to go. Be what you want to be. You have only one life and one chance to do all things you want to do. You may have enough happiness to make you sweat, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to make you human, and enough hope to make you happy.

Always put yourself in other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person too. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes their way. Happiness is given to those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can't go on well in life until you let go of your failures and heartaches...

"When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying."

friend?

2009-11-21T17:30:00.000-08:00

The sweetness of friendship veers into the pain of betrayal. He speaks when you turn your back. He makes face when you look at him. He is classified as a mirror - great liar! He utters thoughtless words to satisfy his childish needs. He stabs at anyone's back in order to save his self from great humiliation. a pathetic being, in order to beat his needs...he's willing to sacrifice friendship and give up love without hesitation. He shows apathy to everyone. Show him importance, he'll take you for granted. Give him power, he'll over use it. Show him love, he won't mind. Give him respect, he don't deserve it. Give him trust, he'll break it!

Another friendship had been broken. "Forget not honesty; but let thine heart keep its trust."

..heart speaks..

2009-09-04T07:43:00.000-07:00

when heart refuses to be calmed, admit that
something is wrong...

an unexplainable feeling of being worried about someone you love. such a pain in the neck. you are guilty beyond reasonable doubt. but you can't deny it...for the fact that you know you are wrong. you can fool everyone ,, but you cannot fool yourself nor the one who speaks to your heart honestly. there is a reward for everything. maybe tomorrow, or on the day we both don't know,, we will find our place.. the place where you and i belong..

[:YOU AS MY DOMICILE:]

2009-08-06T05:55:00.000-07:00

hark! i feel the pain badly,
sorrow runs into my veins....
my desire to be appreciated??
- it was never gone.
after how many years,
i tried to stand for my own
but never i was spared
at least a bit of affection.
i feel empty..!
alone, i am still alone.
it was him whom i
have been chosen to love..
a hypocrite gentleman Juan dela Cruz
with one in a billion opportunity.
i don't know how long and
how far this feeling could go.
being perplex and imbecile,
conscience often visit me,,
from somewhere to nowhere..
the mistakes i've done in my past
brought me here...
at least i became stronger..
but i never thought he''d act as if
he's a child...
a pretty immature boy..
there is nothing left..
everything we had was gone..

in the end, nothing is truly mine to keep.

-mizchyiel

.michael molina nael.

2009-05-23T21:09:00.000-07:00

An almost perfect dad and I couldn't ask for more. I am simply being spoiled by his love and material things also. Often times I ask for worldly things. He gives me what I want. But several times... He couldn't. I ask for material things, (that's me), and asking for those makes me happy... Not because I’m blinded by those shinning and shimmering materials. I’m not that kind of daughter. But to see papa striving and working hard to earn something to give what I want, it melts my heart to see how much he loves me that whenever I ask for something, he will instantly give it to me. I’m happy to have material thing and be called ‘materialistic’... And I’m glad to have a papa like him. I know his not perfect. And I too, am not perfect. Sometimes I accidentally hurt him because of my will of reaching for my goals. It makes me feel selfish. If I could turn back the time, I’ll do everything to please him. I’m not the one (the daughter) he wants me to be. He named me right after his name. But it was I who ruined his reputation. It was I who put him into a delicate situation. I do love him. And I’ll do everything to achieve my goals; I’ll do it for him. He will march with me as I graduate in my high school days next year. He will be my 18th rose in my debut after 2 years. He will put medals on me after completing my college years. And he will be with me as we (mama and I) migrate to New Zealand. Here in my heart... Michael Molina Nael will never be replaced.

between two angels...

2009-05-02T08:13:00.000-07:00

there stood in a garden, a child sweet and fair,
watching some fruit hat hang ripening there.
two anxious angels were watching above:
one gazing in hatred, the other in love:
one clothed in black, the other in white.

the child never dreamed that the angels were there.
he just longed for the fruit so rich and so rare.
how i should like that big apple so red,
but forget what my dear mother said,
that doing the things i'm forbidden to do
would make me unhappy and grieve her heart, too.

"take it," the dark angel whispered, "and eat it.
it is not very often you get such a treat.
there is no one to see you and no one to tell."
so up went a hand, it could reach the fruit well.

but the child paused a moment and said as he smiled,
"i'll not be a thief, i'll be a go0d child."
the rustling sound stirred the soft summer air.
one angel was gone but the other was still there.

the angel of darkness had taken its flight.
the child was alone with the angel of light.
in this little story we plainly can see,
an everyday lesson for you and for me:
we can conquer temptations - the angel of night,
if we listen to conscience - the angel of light.

[a story from the goddess of love]

my domicile

2009-03-24T09:05:00.000-07:00

last night..is a quiet night. it was 11 o'clock in the evening.. i can't sleep. hours pass very slow,, everyone is a sleep. i can hear them snore., i can hear the ticking of the clock.. my heart beats fast. half an hour passed,, still i can't sleep.. can't grab some milk ,, can't even go down to the kitchen. i'm scared. i don't know why. it was very quiet. and something in me ordered my feet to go in the ro0f top. i went to the dusty, dangerous, slippery roof.. to think what should i do,, to think if it's better to talk to him over the phone or act like nothing happened. reminiscing past,,i went up to gaze stars ..only to find out ..that it was a cloudy night. no stars. and after a few moment of thinking,, rain started to fall. that very moment, rain wet me up slowly,, and i can't move from where i am. in my silence , tears run down to my cheeks. as rain washed me up., my heart calmed for a while. as tears run down from my eyes,, i felt peace. rain turned to drizzle.. it was 12 in the midnight. it's time for me to go down and sleep. before i leave my domicile,, the moon smiled at me,, and stars showed up one by one.

fAitH

2009-02-17T01:13:00.000-08:00

how could faith heal a wounded heart?
how could faith fulfill the needs of a missing trust?
how could faith fix a broken relationship?

how can faith heal my heart...when all i've got is confussion, doubts, frustrations and disappointments?
how can faith fulfill the needs of my mother's missing trust...when she didn't even bother to listen?
how can faith fix my torn relationship with God? knowing that it was i who tore it..it was i who dispersed trust and didn't believe...

...trust ,,believe,, and forgive is how faith can heal a wounded heart.
...forgiveness and acceptance fulfill the needs of a missing trust.
...l0ng before,, God has already forgiven us,,n0 need to doubt..just trust..that's how can faith fix a br0ken relationship.

♥He has f0rgiven us...it's time for us t0 forgive, in return♥

[.mitch.]

//.-

2009-02-15T00:14:00.000-08:00

iSn't it hArd?
it iS diFficult to tuRn y0ur bacK t0 pe0ple wh0m y0u realLy wanted t0 be witH...
t0 let thEm feEl thAt thEy'Re nEglecTed wHen iN facT theY aRe iMporTant...
t0 sh0w theM thAt y0u d0n't miNd thEm whEn in Fact, y0u cAre a Lot...
t0 av0id thEm whEn y0u wanT t0 taKe a st0len gLance...
t0 tReat thEm 0rdinAry whEn in faCt thEy aRe vEry spEciaL...
t0 lEt theM reAlize thAt thEir pResenCe iS natuRally weLc0med wheN iT bRings eXtra0rdinAry exCiteMent...
t0 sAy thinGs c0ntraRy t0 wHat y0u fEel...

-e.t.c.

a good for nothing infatuation

2009-01-30T08:06:00.000-08:00

ever wonder why we fall for someone who doesn't even deserve it?

...i'm finding it hard to act that i don't care,
where in fact i'm s0 w0rried about you..
...i can't find a way to tell myself that a stranger passed me by,
f0r we both know, those strangers c0me close t0 be l0vers..
...it's difficult for me to treat you as an ordinary schoolmate,
knowing that you are so dear to me..
...it tears me up inside when i saw holding her hands,
'cause that hands belongs to me..
...i don't know what to do when i need to avoid you,
but all i really want is to share the rest of my day beside you..
...it seems that i need to do things against on how i feel..

so i guess this is go0dbye...
and this g0od for nothing infatuation made me realize how f0olish i had become.

._i Am miChelLe j0yZce_.

2009-01-18T20:53:00.001-08:00

we cannot listen to what others want us to do..

we must listento ourselves..

we don't need to copy other people's way,

and we don't need to act out certain lifestyles

to impress other people..

only we know and only we can do what is right for us..

so start right now,,

you will need to over come many obstacles..

you will need to go against the better judgement of many people..

and you will need to bypass their prejudices,,

but you can have whatever you want

if you try hard enough start right now so that you can live a life..

..i am michelle ,, i live my life to the fullest,, and i live with it like it's my last..

OTHER PEOPLE CAN NEVER CHANGE ME THE WAY THEY WANT ME TO BE!!!!

nExt in liNe

2009-01-15T21:48:00.000-08:00

another bible study group..

(fr0m left t0 right)

marjorie, alyza, joy, divine, vincent, nadine, and marineLa

(kua jessie of course at the back)

..in this new set of kids..

i'lL d0 my best t0 lead them wherever they should be,,

2009-01-10T03:29:00.000-08:00

xigur0 nga kaxalanan co qng bakit wLa n xia..
n khet umiyak ac0,,
i will never change the fact that,,
i let him g0..
and now,,
i'm missing him badly...

please come back,,

,,untitled,,

2009-01-01T02:40:00.000-08:00

it seems that,, i'm wasting my time..and my life,, acting t0o childish.. being self-centered,, not minding others. asking "freedom" is just like,, asking something better for myself and nothing for others.. gets nyo ba???

there are things i must prioritize,, what's with the rush?? things can wait.. think openly,, go beyond the barrier .. my barrier.. why do i need t0 stay in this closed-space pLace???if i have my place out there...

i'm always askng for freedom.. but the truth is,, i already have it.. it's just that i can't use it wisely..and then i'm complaining that i'm stuck ,, here in this house(that i used to call "hell"),, now..i'm starting all over again,, but this time.. i have no regrets,, starting to love things that i used to hate,, starting to be true to myself.. (ang plastik ko kxe) ,, and being true made me realize that.. i don't need material things,, i don't need temporary enjoyment.. i want to enjoy this life,, the way it has to be..

..i promise...

2008-12-25T03:59:00.000-08:00

Will I'll always be there for you
When you need someone well I'll be that one
Will I'll do all my best to protect you
When the tears get me all right
Will I'll be the one that's by your side

Will I'll be there when you call
me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

When you're sick I'll take care of you
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I'll be there to make you strong
And to lean on
When this world has turned so cold
Will I'll be the one that's there to hold

And I'll love you more everyday
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
There for you

I promise
I promise
When you call me
I promise
I promise I will

[jebaii nak,, wLang basagan ng trip..]

a song proudly dedicated to iya,,

n.n

love you ,,

,,uNtil wHen aRe yoU pLanniNg t0 huRt me???

2008-12-21T23:43:00.000-08:00

di co na kaia ,,
i did everything,,
but i think,,
my everything is not enough,,

"...tell me how to stop this feeling"

[..+God+..]

2008-12-14T18:20:00.000-08:00

Have you ever been down and out and

nobody seems to be around for you to talk to...

that's God,, he wants you to talk to him.

Have you ever been just sitting there and

all of the sudden you feel like doing nice for someone you care for...

that's God,, he talks to you.

have you ever been thinking about somebody

that you haven't seen in a long time and then

next thing you know you see them or receive a phone call from them...

that's God.. there is no such thing as "coincidence."

have you ever received something woderful

that you didn't even ask for

that's God.. he knows the desire of your heart.

have you ever been in a situation and

you had no clue how it is going to get better,

but now you look back on it...

that's God... he passes us through tribulation to see a brighter day.

in all that we do,, we should give thanks to God,,

just sharing the glory of God,,

God bLess sa lahat,,

._i'm proud to be called "princess"

for my father is the king of Kings!!!

i have come t0 know what love is all about,

2008-12-10T02:28:00.000-08:00

are you still happy, sitting beside me?
where is the laughter,, our moments together?
have i ever told you i am right here just to hold your hands?
how's your life going? you left me hanging..
lost between my thoughts, silence it kills me..
patching broken pieces of me,, what are we now?

wonder if you know how much i'm missing you,
is there any place for me? a space left inside of you,

i want you to know,
you're the reason why i'm here
or i should go and let this all disappear..
if only i could go back to where we start,
i should never let you know...
even for once ,, i have come to know what love is all about,,

Can you still hear me? Seems you don’t notice
How many times do I have to tell you?
I have appreciated and love you for who you are..

and don't even hesitate to tell me what is true...
is there any place for me, a space left inside of you??

whAt atTracted me t0 v.C.a.??

2008-12-02T02:47:00.000-08:00

"growing up in a family with strong-faith catholic family background didn't open my mind to look for an option that can give me the better life i always wanted. it's the ability to choose a better life... that's what attracted me,,"

i was attracted,,

not by the church..

not by the workers,,

..but by the presence of God,,

i stay there because of God,,..alone,,

lEctuRe ni aTe,,

2008-11-29T01:06:00.000-08:00

l0ve-begins with the experience of l0neliness..
i need m0re than eyes,, i need m0re than mind
i need an attitude, a heart that has br0ken away fr0m self-preoccupati0n..
“because 0f y0u, i understand the meaninglessness of my eg0”
i am n0t meant to be al0ne,, perhaps i can only be truly myself with you.
l0ve is effective. it takes acti0ns…
i have t0 break the pr0visi0nal structure i have given t0 my 0wn life,, and this is painful.
pain lies in aband0ning my ego., my self-centeredness.. but this d0esn’t mean t0 loss myself..
desire is essential but should never bec0me the m0tive f0r loving.
Am i l0ving n0t f0r what he is,,but f0r what can i get in return,,f0r myself’??
‘you’ is n0t ‘he’ or ’she’ i talk about. it’s n0t f0r 0ther self, but f0r you-whom-i-care about.
i presist in l0ving the 0ther inspite of pain., perhaps my l0ve is truly selfless. desire t0 be l0ved in return.
the experience of l0ving is painful., and it will take time f0r the l0ver t0 rec0ver.
painful experience of being rejected can be an emptying f0r oneself which w0uld all0w a r0om in 0neself f0r devel0pment..
there is n0 sh0p that sells l0ve…
t0 give myself is n0t s0 much t0 give 0f what i have as what i am and what i can become.
what d0es it mean t0 give myself’?? it means t0 give my will, my ideas, my feeling, my experience to the other - to give everything.., all that is alive to me.
l0ve is sharing myself t0 an0ther..
it is easy t0 l0vemankind(in general), but difficult t0 l0ve a unique pers0n.
t0 l0ve the 0ther, d0esn’t mean t0 impr0ve him..
‘y0u are beautiful…but empty,,‘ that’s what get..
l0ve thus inv0lves n0 abstacti0n. everything is c0ncrete. l0neliness, the absence 0f l0ve, lives am0ng shad0ws,. inv0lves that n0thing is real..
l0ve is t0tal, eternal, and sacred..
l0ve d0es n0t hurt. rejecti0ns d0.
we always have a ch0ice..
‘h0ld on‘?? or ‘let g0‘??
it’s y0ur decisi0n..

[+emo//love+]

2008-11-28T21:30:00.000-08:00

suicidals..
why do they hurt themselves?
is it really needed??
it won't even ease the pain they're feeling..
in fact they will hurt themselves even more..
why did mS. nice-looking simple neighbor turned out to be a emo,,?
and mR. right ran out of the school with cuts and bruises??
and they bLame LOVE because they were ignored by their loved-ones..
stupid beings..
they cLaim love as weakness..
because they can't see the beauty of love,,
the extreme feeling of sharing it to the other who doesn't even deserve it..
they blame love because their EGO (not feeling or something) hurts..
they don't look at the fact that it made them stronger..

bhes#1: joyzce,, tanga ba xia pra hindi malaman na nasasaktan ako? at tinatanong nea kung bkit ako ngseselos..malamang diba kxe boyfriend ko xia..thankful ako sknea kxe gnagawa nea akong manhid!! gnagawa nea akong malakas..

joyzce:alm mo bhes#1,, being numb and being strong is totally different.. cLaiming yourself as "manhid" means you gave up,, and you're a failure.. but cLaiming yourself as "malakas" means you can handle the situation,, na kahit sinasaktan a nea,, tinutuloy-tuloy mo yung laban dahil mahal mo xia..being numb is a weakness.. kea wg mong ssbihing manhid ka na dhil sknea,, kxe admit it or not nkikita ko n mahal mo xia..

haixt..
most of the time..
a princess is asking for a prince charming to come..
a prince that's riding in a white horse..
a knight in shining armor..

and when the prince didn't come..
the beautiful princess will suddenly turn to a witch..
heartless and wicked witch (yung parang hindi nagsusuklay..)
..

and they will put the bLame to the prince,,
(sana dba,, ng-iisip xia..)

[enough for the fairy tale stories..]

ang mga babae kxe neun,
nghahanap prin ng prince charming..
umaasa n pag nsa pnganib xLa,,e may darating..
umaasa ng proper and nice treatment(prince kxe e)
bt d nLang xLa 2mulad xken(complement b to or wat??)
i'm waiting for a vampire in a shining silver volvo..
and i blieve,, that vampire is just somewhere near me,,
[tamaAn k sAna ^.^]because i don't want a "prince charming"
(magkakaron p ko ng dahilan pra mglit dun s prince charming n un pg d pla xia charming)
i'm not expecting a nice treatment from a vampire,,
in that case..
i won't be hurt..
;P

,,awesome first time..

2008-11-25T02:23:00.000-08:00

let's make it short and simple..
..tagalog tau
..
bible study day neun..
peo wLa ung iba,,
edi,, sayang nman effort nila ate ayen,, kua deep, kua franz, ate jane, ate shin(<-kung anun mang spelling)
,,
kua franz:evangelizm muna tau habang wLa sila,,
michelle,, nkikita mo un,,? practice k na..

xempre,, kung ndi neun,, keilan pa ,,?
ung sharing n dapat sandali lang,,
un ung ginawa nmen buong hapon..
tapoz
after ng children's story telling s mga chikiting,,
lumipat kme s higher level..
ung mga taga theressa,,
named: eunice, regine(na-X daw ni to0t, tga vCa p man din,) at chini..
i can't believe that behind those pretty faces and beautiful smiles e
mei mbigat n problems pla ang mga kagandang dilag duon,,
,,
after nun,,
nagtipon-tipon lahat ng tga-vCa n andun,,
keilangan n daw nlang umalis,,
,, energized p nman ako nun..
keia .. ako ung nagsagawa ng evangelization mag-1,,

kau hardeep: a very simple tip ... keep it simple

xempre, first time ,,kabado at excited..
nkita ko ung mga taga lourdes n minsan n nming nkitang
ngyoyosi at sasali sa frat,
well..
opportunity grabber ang lola neu,,
nilapitan ko..
,,
i met krystel and dianne..
ksing edad at k2lad ko din,,
halos ptapon n,,
ang pinagkaiba lang,,
i'm worse than them before,
isang patay n cristiano n binabato ng sandamakmak n problema,,
at isang unbeliever,, n parang wLang pkialam s sinasabe ko..
hindi ko ineexpect n ung mga babaeng un,,
e gusto rin pLang mabago,,
,,
willing silang pumunta sa bible study at sa vCa enitime,,
,,
and ,, tuwang tuwa sila..
dahil hindi nila inakala n sa pagtambay s park e mkikita nila kung anong hinahanap nila,,
..
wLa lang,,
tuwang tuwa lang ako,,
hindi ko inakalang sa unang sabak ko(ng mag-isa)
e mkikilala ko ung mga gnung klaseng tao,,
i felt so blessed!!

hallelujah Jesus!!
praise the Lord!

vampire knight guilty,,

2008-11-22T21:29:00.001-08:00

i want these gentle hands and these kind of smile..

i'll ignore everyone of them because all i want is you,,

i'll protect you,,

fLame of hEavens

2008-11-22T18:02:00.000-08:00

shakugan no shana II

The world has been deceived from the truth. The Guze no Tomogara have been stealing human existence for selfish, power-fulfilling purposes. As a result, human beings become lifeless entities known as Torches. Their soul becomes nothing more than a candle in the wind and what's worse is that their identity is erased from the history of the world entirely when their flame goes out.

fLAme of heavens with shana and yuji sakai with the reiji maigo

Sakai Yuuji was just a normal high school student until he found himself caught in between an eternal struggle for power. On his way home one day, time came to a screeching halt. Yuuji scanned his surrounding, finding everything motionless. Without any given opportunity to assess the situation, Yuuji met face-to-face with demons that wished to rob him of his life. Before their plans had succeeded, a small-stature, sword-wielding girl with burning red hair and matching crimson eyes calling herself a Flame Haze came to his aid. The mysterious girl managed to win the battle, but Yuuji unfortunately became a Torch. However, Yuuji's flame did not extinguish days later. Rather, his flame regenerated at the stroke of midnight. Yuuji's rare ability labeled him a prime target for the Guze no Tomogara. In order to protect their reality and prevent the loss of more human lives, Yuuji joins forces with Shana the Flame Haze in her never-ending struggle.

http://www.crunchyroll.com/media-315274/Shakugan-no-Shana-II-Episode-24.html

open letter to limuel punzalan

2008-11-21T21:05:00.000-08:00

dear angge,,

alam mo bang ikaw pa rin yung bestriend ko kahit binabalewala mo ko? alam mo bang mahalaga ka sakin,? alam mo bang nasasaktan ako pag kasama mong maglakwatcha sila chorva kahit ang sabe mo sakin bisi ka.. (sinumbatan?? peace tau aa.. n.n) eniweii,, at the same time,, i want to thank you,, saLamat (tagalog para mas sincere tignan),, salamat kasi sa kabila ng kapilyahan ko,, sa kabila ng mga panunumbat ko,, sa kabila ng pagsesels ko sa iba nating mga barkada,, lagi kang anjan pag kinakailangan kita,, remember ung posporo,,(haha!!naalala ko ulit).. sa pakiki-ride sa mga trip ko.. sa pangungunsinte mo sakin sa mga kalokohan ko salamat.. sa pag-advice sakin everytime na gumagawa ako ng mali..bakla ,, sorry kung minsan (i mean always) b.i. ako sau,, ginagawa ko naman lahat ng kaia ko para maging maaus e,, at nakikita mo naman yun diba..?pag mei probs, i'm just a call or e-mail away,, kung gusto mo,, punta ka nalang dito sa bahay,, welcum ka naman dito e,,

labxhou bakla..

-kat_ganda

,, pg ngrereport

2008-11-21T02:03:00.001-08:00

i felt no one is listening when i'm in the middle of my report a while ago,, my report is very interesting,,(knowing that it is my favorite subject).. it's about the effect of pressure in solubility... but everyone has different stories to share,, badtrip! pag sila ung nagrereport,, nkikinig nman ako e,haixt!!

,, i miss the old times..

2008-11-21T01:44:00.000-08:00

,,do you believe in "friends come and go" ??i miss 3R [raffy,rayden,rueno](crush nmeng tatlo) .. or (should i say ch.E.m. ??) ,, lakwatcha moments,, starbucks moments,, burger machine moments, tambay mode,, telebabad moments,, chorvalu s likod ng frenzy hauz,, "sikretong tagpuan" in joshua street.. sobrang nkakamiss,, lahat nag-iba,, lahat mei valid reason para iwan ung dating "samahan" ... how i wish it didn't end that way,,i'd rather turn back than to say goodbye..

kasi naman e,, bkit keilangan pang magkaganun..

"u" is quite far from "i"

2008-11-20T02:04:00.000-08:00

Isn't it quite difficult?
to trust someone you shouldn't have to trust..
to share your life to him(or her) who doesn't care enough..
to love someone as your sister(or brother) when he(or she) hurts you a lot..
to treat him(or her) important and special although you're nothing for that person..

sa lahat ng bestfriend,,, deserving ba kau pra sa isa't-isa??
o naglolokohan lang kau ng harapan??

nakakainiz e,,
sa lahat ng tao,, bakit ung taong minahal mo higit pa sa mga taong nagmamahal sau??

ikaw mismo ung nananakit skin e?? kelan mo balak tumigil?? pg wLA n kong dugo??

well,, i guess,,
c'est la vie,,

u and i have 12 letters in between,,

anime

2008-11-18T17:55:00.000-08:00

anything wrong with that?
I'm addicted to these boys..
*lalush of code geass..
*yukito and
*eriol of card captor sakura,,
*masahiro of magical voice,,
*light yagami of death note,
*keitaro of love hinatain
*captain tezuka of prince of tennis
*yuji sakai and
*ike hayato of shakugan no shana,,

boys(anime) with eye glasses caught my attention easily,,[except kei yuji, light, and lalush..] .. ang cute kea!!

pinangarap kong maging anime nalang dati,, every anime has an interesting story.. "sana anime nalang din ako".. hiniling ko na sana hindi nalang talaga ako nag-exist .. ang babaw no??,, pero kasi pag magkita nyo ung nakikita ko sa anime,, baka sakaling magkasabay na tayong mangarap sa susunod... mei perfect love story..

you're giving reasons to think twice,,

2008-11-18T05:32:00.001-08:00

i don't know what
to do with you boii,,

maganda ka 'teh ??

2008-11-18T02:11:00.000-08:00

"cia,, ayan yung eye liner, tsaka press powder, sa drower ko mei eyelash curler ako,, yung lip gloss ko, tsaka eye shadow nasa bag ,, kasama pala nung eye lash curler ko yung consealer .. balik mo kung saan mo kinuha ah. una na ako sa SM,, paganda ka huh,, remember WALANG SPACE ANG PANGET SA MUNDO"

AH!!PESTE! hindi naman mxadong halata na sinasabi ni chorvah na panget ako,, db. p0rket mapute ka??? maganda ka teh???? e sinu nmang ngsabe sayo na gusto ko sa mundo mo??? i have my own world.. SO PLEASE,, stop acting that you're the only beautiful creature in this world!!! tinatago ko na nga yung pagmumukha ko e,, bat gusto mong iexpose ko? at ang shonga mo naman ata para makalimutan mo na allergic ako sa cosmetics.,, xhemaii!!

you're not that pretty,,
so don't go by the looks,,

saan ba nsusukat ang talino??

2008-11-17T01:37:00.000-08:00

*pg ng-eenglish, japanese, chinese, latin, o french matalino na?
*pg wLang line of 7 sa report card matalino na?
*pg ksama sa top 10 matalino na?

ano ba ang basehan ng pagiging matalino?

"i think, therefore, i am"

2008-11-16T23:41:00.000-08:00

wLA lang ,,
ang ganda pakinggan e,,
eniweii,,
this statement propose
that your existence is beyond reasonable doubt..
when people doubts,,
he thinks,,
when he thinks,,
therefore he exists,,

aion,,
yan ung pumasok sa isip ko e,,

n.n
mei iba bang explanation bukod jan?
(baka mali ung explanation ko ,, nkakahiya)

,,after 2 months,,

2008-11-15T21:55:00.000-08:00

another blog,,
after 2 months
i decided to make another entry..
peste,,
ang hirap mag-english!
tagalog tay0,,
matapos ang dalawang buwan,,
gumawa ulit ako ng blog,,
masyado akong naging bisi sa livejournal,,
hindi ko napagtuunan ng pansin ang
account ko sa blogspot,,
matap0s ang 2 buwan,,
ganun parin,,
wala pa rin akong maisip,,

...
haixt..
hanggang dito nlang,,
m.k.d.m.p.a.(<=tgalog version ng t.c.c.i.c.)

,,isolated,,

2008-09-15T15:25:00.000-07:00

they were laughing
and backstabbing,,
i can't breathe
,,crying,
judging me..
going with the flow..
STOP!
you're disgracing me,,
disgracing everyone around me.

bothered.,
i can't think wisely..
wisdom?
i don't think have it now.
want some distance.
don't want to trust anyone.
ALONE - that's what i want
leave me alone!

i don't want to talk.
silence,,
it kills.
i don't want to see anyone..
don't want to give a fake smile,,
don't want to with anyone..
please don't ask me why..
because i know you know why..
i want to be
ISOLATED..