my domicile

last night..is a quiet night. it was 11 o'clock in the evening.. i can't sleep. hours pass very slow,, everyone is a sleep. i can hear them snore., i can hear the ticking of the clock.. my heart beats fast. half an hour passed,, still i can't sleep.. can't grab some milk ,, can't even go down to the kitchen. i'm scared. i don't know why. it was very quiet. and something in me ordered my feet to go in the ro0f top. i went to the dusty, dangerous, slippery roof.. to think what should i do,, to think if it's better to talk to him over the phone or act like nothing happened. reminiscing past,,i went up to gaze stars ..only to find out ..that it was a cloudy night. no stars. and after a few moment of thinking,, rain started to fall. that very moment, rain wet me up slowly,, and i can't move from where i am. in my silence , tears run down to my cheeks. as rain washed me up., my heart calmed for a while. as tears run down from my eyes,, i felt peace. rain turned to drizzle.. it was 12 in the midnight. it's time for me to go down and sleep. before i leave my domicile,, the moon smiled at me,, and stars showed up one by one.

fAitH

how could faith heal a wounded heart?
how could faith fulfill the needs of a missing trust?
how could faith fix a broken relationship?

how can faith heal my heart...when all i've got is confussion, doubts, frustrations and disappointments?
how can faith fulfill the needs of my mother's missing trust...when she didn't even bother to listen?
how can faith fix my torn relationship with God? knowing that it was i who tore it..it was i who dispersed trust and didn't believe...

...trust ,,believe,, and forgive is how faith can heal a wounded heart.
...forgiveness and acceptance fulfill the needs of a missing trust.
...l0ng before,, God has already forgiven us,,n0 need to doubt..just trust..that's how can faith fix a br0ken relationship.


♥He has f0rgiven us...it's time for us t0 forgive, in return♥





[.mitch.]

//.-

iSn't it hArd?
it iS diFficult to tuRn y0ur bacK t0 pe0ple wh0m y0u realLy wanted t0 be witH...
t0 let thEm feEl thAt thEy'Re nEglecTed wHen iN facT theY aRe iMporTant...
t0 sh0w theM thAt y0u d0n't miNd thEm whEn in Fact, y0u cAre a Lot...
t0 av0id thEm whEn y0u wanT t0 taKe a st0len gLance...
t0 tReat thEm 0rdinAry whEn in faCt thEy aRe vEry spEciaL...
t0 lEt theM reAlize thAt thEir pResenCe iS natuRally weLc0med wheN iT bRings eXtra0rdinAry exCiteMent...
t0 sAy thinGs c0ntraRy t0 wHat y0u fEel...

-e.t.c.

a good for nothing infatuation

ever wonder why we fall for someone who doesn't even deserve it?

...i'm finding it hard to act that i don't care,
where in fact i'm s0 w0rried about you..
...i can't find a way to tell myself that a stranger passed me by,
f0r we both know, those strangers c0me close t0 be l0vers..
...it's difficult for me to treat you as an ordinary schoolmate,
knowing that you are so dear to me..
...it tears me up inside when i saw holding her hands,
'cause that hands belongs to me..
...i don't know what to do when i need to avoid you,
but all i really want is to share the rest of my day beside you..
...it seems that i need to do things against on how i feel..

so i guess this is go0dbye...
and this g0od for nothing infatuation made me realize how f0olish i had become.

._i Am miChelLe j0yZce_.

we cannot listen to what others want us to do..

we must listento ourselves..

we don't need to copy other people's way,

and we don't need to act out certain lifestyles

to impress other people..

only we know and only we can do what is right for us..

so start right now,,

you will need to over come many obstacles..

you will need to go against the better judgement of many people..

and you will need to bypass their prejudices,,

but you can have whatever you want

if you try hard enough start right now so that you can live a life..

designed by you and for you
..a better life you deserve

..i am michelle ,, i live my life to the fullest,, and i live with it like it's my last..

OTHER PEOPLE CAN NEVER CHANGE ME THE WAY THEY WANT ME TO BE!!!!

nExt in liNe

another bible study group..

(fr0m left t0 right)

marjorie, alyza, joy, divine, vincent, nadine, and marineLa

(kua jessie of course at the back)

..in this new set of kids..

i'lL d0 my best t0 lead them wherever they should be,,

xigur0 nga kaxalanan co qng bakit wLa n xia..
n khet umiyak ac0,,
i will never change the fact that,,
i let him g0..
and now,,
i'm missing him badly...

please come back,,

,,untitled,,

it seems that,, i'm wasting my time..and my life,, acting t0o childish.. being self-centered,, not minding others. asking "freedom" is just like,, asking something better for myself and nothing for others.. gets nyo ba???

there are things i must prioritize,, what's with the rush?? things can wait.. think openly,, go beyond the barrier .. my barrier.. why do i need t0 stay in this closed-space pLace???if i have my place out there...

i'm always askng for freedom.. but the truth is,, i already have it.. it's just that i can't use it wisely..and then i'm complaining that i'm stuck ,, here in this house(that i used to call "hell"),, now..i'm starting all over again,, but this time.. i have no regrets,, starting to love things that i used to hate,, starting to be true to myself.. (ang plastik ko kxe) ,, and being true made me realize that.. i don't need material things,, i don't need temporary enjoyment.. i want to enjoy this life,, the way it has to be..