Tuesday, December 1, 2009


Maybe God wants us to meet few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes, another one opens, but oftentimes we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one that has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is someone you can sit with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

"Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you in return" just wait for it to grow in their heart. If it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone... but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Don't go for the looks, for they can deceive. Don't go for the wealth; even that fades away. find the one who makes your heart smile. Dream what you want to dream. Go wherever you want to go. Be what you want to be. You have only one life and one chance to do all things you want to do. You may have enough happiness to make you sweat, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to make you human, and enough hope to make you happy.

Always put yourself in other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person too. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes their way. Happiness is given to those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can't go on well in life until you let go of your failures and heartaches...

"When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying."

Saturday, November 21, 2009


The sweetness of friendship veers into the pain of betrayal. He speaks when you turn your back. He makes face when you look at him. He is classified as a mirror - great liar! He utters thoughtless words to satisfy his childish needs. He stabs at anyone's back in order to save his self from great humiliation. a pathetic being, in order to beat his needs...he's willing to sacrifice friendship and give up love without hesitation. He shows apathy to everyone. Show him importance, he'll take you for granted. Give him power, he'll over use it. Show him love, he won't mind. Give him respect, he don't deserve it. Give him trust, he'll break it!

Another friendship had been broken. "Forget not honesty; but let thine heart keep its trust."

Friday, September 4, 2009

..heart speaks..

when heart refuses to be calmed, admit that
something is wrong...

an unexplainable feeling of being worried about someone you love. such a pain in the neck. you are guilty beyond reasonable doubt. but you can't deny it...for the fact that you know you are wrong. you can fool everyone ,, but you cannot fool yourself nor the one who speaks to your heart honestly. there is a reward for everything. maybe tomorrow, or on the day we both don't know,, we will find our place.. the place where you and i belong..

Thursday, August 6, 2009


hark! i feel the pain badly,
sorrow runs into my veins....
my desire to be appreciated??
- it was never gone.
after how many years,
i tried to stand for my own
but never i was spared
at least a bit of affection.
i feel empty..!
alone, i am still alone.
it was him whom i
have been chosen to love..
a hypocrite gentleman Juan dela Cruz
with one in a billion opportunity.
i don't know how long and
how far this feeling could go.
being perplex and imbecile,
conscience often visit me,,
from somewhere to nowhere..
the mistakes i've done in my past
brought me here...
at least i became stronger..
but i never thought he''d act as if
he's a child...
a pretty immature boy..
there is nothing left..
everything we had was gone..

in the end, nothing is truly mine to keep.


Saturday, May 23, 2009

.michael molina nael.

An almost perfect dad and I couldn't ask for more. I am simply being spoiled by his love and material things also. Often times I ask for worldly things. He gives me what I want. But several times... He couldn't. I ask for material things, (that's me), and asking for those makes me happy... Not because I’m blinded by those shinning and shimmering materials. I’m not that kind of daughter. But to see papa striving and working hard to earn something to give what I want, it melts my heart to see how much he loves me that whenever I ask for something, he will instantly give it to me. I’m happy to have material thing and be called ‘materialistic’... And I’m glad to have a papa like him. I know his not perfect. And I too, am not perfect. Sometimes I accidentally hurt him because of my will of reaching for my goals. It makes me feel selfish. If I could turn back the time, I’ll do everything to please him. I’m not the one (the daughter) he wants me to be. He named me right after his name. But it was I who ruined his reputation. It was I who put him into a delicate situation. I do love him. And I’ll do everything to achieve my goals; I’ll do it for him. He will march with me as I graduate in my high school days next year. He will be my 18th rose in my debut after 2 years. He will put medals on me after completing my college years. And he will be with me as we (mama and I) migrate to New Zealand. Here in my heart... Michael Molina Nael will never be replaced.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

between two angels...

there stood in a garden, a child sweet and fair,
watching some fruit hat hang ripening there.
two anxious angels were watching above:
one gazing in hatred, the other in love:
one clothed in black, the other in white.

the child never dreamed that the angels were there.
he just longed for the fruit so rich and so rare.
how i should like that big apple so red,
but forget what my dear mother said,
that doing the things i'm forbidden to do
would make me unhappy and grieve her heart, too.

"take it," the dark angel whispered, "and eat it.
it is not very often you get such a treat.
there is no one to see you and no one to tell."
so up went a hand, it could reach the fruit well.

but the child paused a moment and said as he smiled,
"i'll not be a thief, i'll be a go0d child."
the rustling sound stirred the soft summer air.
one angel was gone but the other was still there.

the angel of darkness had taken its flight.
the child was alone with the angel of light.
in this little story we plainly can see,
an everyday lesson for you and for me:
we can conquer temptations - the angel of night,
if we listen to conscience - the angel of light.

[a story from the goddess of love]

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

my domicile

last night..is a quiet night. it was 11 o'clock in the evening.. i can't sleep. hours pass very slow,, everyone is a sleep. i can hear them snore., i can hear the ticking of the clock.. my heart beats fast. half an hour passed,, still i can't sleep.. can't grab some milk ,, can't even go down to the kitchen. i'm scared. i don't know why. it was very quiet. and something in me ordered my feet to go in the ro0f top. i went to the dusty, dangerous, slippery roof.. to think what should i do,, to think if it's better to talk to him over the phone or act like nothing happened. reminiscing past,,i went up to gaze stars ..only to find out ..that it was a cloudy night. no stars. and after a few moment of thinking,, rain started to fall. that very moment, rain wet me up slowly,, and i can't move from where i am. in my silence , tears run down to my cheeks. as rain washed me up., my heart calmed for a while. as tears run down from my eyes,, i felt peace. rain turned to drizzle.. it was 12 in the midnight. it's time for me to go down and sleep. before i leave my domicile,, the moon smiled at me,, and stars showed up one by one.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


how could faith heal a wounded heart?
how could faith fulfill the needs of a missing trust?
how could faith fix a broken relationship?

how can faith heal my heart...when all i've got is confussion, doubts, frustrations and disappointments?
how can faith fulfill the needs of my mother's missing trust...when she didn't even bother to listen?
how can faith fix my torn relationship with God? knowing that it was i who tore it..it was i who dispersed trust and didn't believe...

...trust ,,believe,, and forgive is how faith can heal a wounded heart.
...forgiveness and acceptance fulfill the needs of a missing trust.
...l0ng before,, God has already forgiven us,,n0 need to doubt..just trust..that's how can faith fix a br0ken relationship.

♥He has f0rgiven us...it's time for us t0 forgive, in return♥


Sunday, February 15, 2009


iSn't it hArd?
it iS diFficult to tuRn y0ur bacK t0 pe0ple wh0m y0u realLy wanted t0 be witH...
t0 let thEm feEl thAt thEy'Re nEglecTed wHen iN facT theY aRe iMporTant...
t0 sh0w theM thAt y0u d0n't miNd thEm whEn in Fact, y0u cAre a Lot...
t0 av0id thEm whEn y0u wanT t0 taKe a st0len gLance...
t0 tReat thEm 0rdinAry whEn in faCt thEy aRe vEry spEciaL...
t0 lEt theM reAlize thAt thEir pResenCe iS natuRally weLc0med wheN iT bRings eXtra0rdinAry exCiteMent...
t0 sAy thinGs c0ntraRy t0 wHat y0u fEel...


Friday, January 30, 2009

a good for nothing infatuation

ever wonder why we fall for someone who doesn't even deserve it?

...i'm finding it hard to act that i don't care,
where in fact i'm s0 w0rried about you..
...i can't find a way to tell myself that a stranger passed me by,
f0r we both know, those strangers c0me close t0 be l0vers..
...it's difficult for me to treat you as an ordinary schoolmate,
knowing that you are so dear to me..
...it tears me up inside when i saw holding her hands,
'cause that hands belongs to me..
...i don't know what to do when i need to avoid you,
but all i really want is to share the rest of my day beside you..
...it seems that i need to do things against on how i feel..

so i guess this is go0dbye...
and this g0od for nothing infatuation made me realize how f0olish i had become.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

._i Am miChelLe j0yZce_.

we cannot listen to what others want us to do..
we must listento ourselves..
we don't need to copy other people's way,
and we don't need to act out certain lifestyles
to impress other people..
only we know and only we can do what is right for us..
so start right now,,
you will need to over come many obstacles..
you will need to go against the better judgement of many people..
and you will need to bypass their prejudices,,
but you can have whatever you want
if you try hard enough start right now so that you can live a life..
designed by you and for you
..a better life you deserve
..i am michelle ,, i live my life to the fullest,, and i live with it like it's my last..

Thursday, January 15, 2009

nExt in liNe

another bible study group..
(fr0m left t0 right)
marjorie, alyza, joy, divine, vincent, nadine, and marineLa
(kua jessie of course at the back)
..in this new set of kids..
i'lL d0 my best t0 lead them wherever they should be,,

Saturday, January 10, 2009

xigur0 nga kaxalanan co qng bakit wLa n xia..
n khet umiyak ac0,,
i will never change the fact that,,
i let him g0..
and now,,
i'm missing him badly...

please come back,,

Thursday, January 1, 2009


it seems that,, i'm wasting my time..and my life,, acting t0o childish.. being self-centered,, not minding others. asking "freedom" is just like,, asking something better for myself and nothing for others.. gets nyo ba???
there are things i must prioritize,, what's with the rush?? things can wait.. think openly,, go beyond the barrier .. my barrier.. why do i need t0 stay in this closed-space pLace???if i have my place out there...
i'm always askng for freedom.. but the truth is,, i already have it.. it's just that i can't use it wisely..and then i'm complaining that i'm stuck ,, here in this house(that i used to call "hell"),, now..i'm starting all over again,, but this time.. i have no regrets,, starting to love things that i used to hate,, starting to be true to myself.. (ang plastik ko kxe) ,, and being true made me realize that.. i don't need material things,, i don't need temporary enjoyment.. i want to enjoy this life,, the way it has to be..